Archive for January, 2009


knitterly natter.

January 29, 2009

I hear you say “its about time” and I warn you its picture heavy

well I’m so lax with this I’ve got no idea where to start. Firstly I thought I’d better at least mention I bought myself these new books: fitted knits and gathering of lace for Christmas. The 2nd of my books is being used in #3. My challenge if I do choose to accept it is to follow more book patterns this year because I have a great and stunning library of items now. So on with the current projects.

1, do I felt it or do I not?
chunky hat

Its a hat, straight from carded fiber, I drafted the fiber as I went along but added almost no spin so it may just fall apart at any given moment. Also its just a tad too small for my huge bonce. I want to felt it but meh… we’ll see.

2, new socks with new hand spun yarn. I bought some yarn from bockstark knits
socks! made from this gorgeous yarn:

I love it, its pretty and as I started this on Sunday its going very quickly indeed. I’m already up to the heel turns on both socks. They are turning out very beautiful indeed.

3, progress on a pattern I am following for once:

From a gathering of lace. It is also beautiful but I had to double up some lace weight in cinnamon to get a texture and weight I was happy with. This meant the 800 yards ball is now only 400 yards. Its alpaca which I just happened to have some slightly heavier alpaca in a natural grey. I will be transferring over to the new colour in stages and hopefully it will blend well.

4, FO FO FO FO FO! *sung to a tune*

OH  MY  GOD.. its beautiful, and I packaged it nicely and I cant wait for Eve to get it.

I do want to publish more pictures but she’s not got it yet. Click the above image to see the pictures of the item I made from ball to complete and packaged. Please, its worth it. I love it and I hope Eve does too.

5, and finally a photo of my dad in his Christmas scarf. Taken at lunch time today. We went out for tapas which was lovely.

He’s probably going to hate me for putting it up but I still think he’s super handsome.

AAAAAAAnd, all that means I’m quite a bit happier and off to knitting night tonight and picking up a friend on the way. woo! good things.



January 28, 2009

Firstly I steamed my face last night before bed with menthol crystals. They worked and I slept well and almost felt human when I woke up. This is a good thing.

I knew I was fit enough for work. BOOO! but because I went in to work I also had time to go to town at lunch and get a couple of things. Firstly a package to send a finished object. *shock horror* and some coffee beans *YUM* and finally one of my colleagues that I walk home with sometimes is leaving BOOO! but I was given his money to go down town and get his leaving present. Which turned out to be a really classy Parker pen with a pot of turquoise ink. NOW if he ever uses that ink he will remember us. A great find.

Now I do want to talk about my FO but that was for my knitting post which will be very soon I promise. I just need to upload some photos to flickr.

The one brilliant thing I noticed. I’m happier but its just because I’m not spending ALL day fighting a headache.


denial is no great river.

January 27, 2009

I’ve not blogged about it because its moaning. I’ve got sinusitis. It seems I get it every year. So far now since getting a cold after Christmas I cant remember a day that I’ve not had a headache, tired eyes and that nagging feeling that you should be ill enough to take a day off work but you know you can make it in so you bother and feel poo sitting at a desk all day.
So I need to do something about it because denying it exists is not working. Having to take pain killers at least once a day every day because its given me nose sores, sinus pressure and to top it all off buzzing ears which are partially blocked. Still I’m well enough to drag myself in to work but not well enough to manage to hide my sinus hell to my colleagues. I have booked a doctors appointment but that is on Friday so I’ve got some wait yet. Here’s hoping it all magically disappears before I get to see him. Still it does not help the depression. I just cant seem to cheer up. I think I needs some more good things to look forward to and some nice happy treats. Still they’re never going to appear unless I organize them myself and who wants to do that when you feel like chum. I know its all boo hoo woes me, I hate myself for doing it but it still is fact I’m no where near who I want to be just because I cant seem to muster any joy or happiness, or even just feel well. Thank god for sock knitting. Which I will update you on soon.

There is some good news. I did finish the aprons I was making for the twins birthday. They loved them, along with some pots and pans and cooking things to go with the new wendy house with cooker sink and washing machine that they got from other family members. The party on Saturday was great. We had a lovely time. So nice in fact I forgot to take any photos what so ever. We were meant to stay over and have a drink or two but yet again because of my ills we came home and did not have a drink.

I know I’m not making life easy for Scotty either. I just hope it never breaks us. I still love him and want to be with him, just hanging around with someone who struggles to even smile must be no fun at all for him.



January 26, 2009

Got to love my kitties. They’re getting bigger and friendlier by the day. Long are the days gone when I could expect some time alone in the house. IF we’re home, they’re in to what we’re doing unless its around 2pm nap time. Which is where I caught them like this:

Which reminded me I’ve not taken any really classy shots of our boys for a good long while. Whilst the light was ok to good in the bedroom I got these:

Such handsome fellows, such class, and happy to pose just for me. 🙂

Which would be fine if I could get wordpress to format in any sort of function of normality. Le sigh… better luck next time.


my first ever….99ish things.

January 22, 2009

I don’t do blog round memes… I like reading them. I just don’t think I can often write enough about them to make them interesting.

Given that I have little or no interesting news, oh except Dad came over for dinner on Sunday and cooked the bestest fish pie ever for us. Even the cats were interested!

So anyways on to the 99 things meme. As always I’m going to do things my way. This means quite a few things will change as I go along because I know a lot of the items are US related and I can translate them in to something else.

Carie and Mary both did this, its about time I joined in.

If you join in, please leave a comment so that I can read yours.

Things you’ve already done: bold
Things you want to do: italicize
Things you haven’t done and don’t want to – leave in plain font

1. Started your own blog. I even wrote my own code once… on my own wordpress hosted at home jobby. Then I got bored and now host online at wordpress not worrying about sorting out any code at all. That is what my husband is for. Code monkey!

2. Slept under the stars. Sorta, I camped often as a child but always with a tent.

3. Played in a band. GOD NO. Cant sing and certainly cant hold down a tune on any instrument. I listen instead.

4. Visited Hawaii. Visited anywhere outside Europe. I went to Yugoslavia before it was split up. Thats about the furthest I’ve ever been.

5. Watched a meteor shower. Several, non that really took my breath away but seen my fair share of shooting stars.

6. Given more than you can afford to charity. NAH. I give, but I’m reticent to tell anyone. The point of charitable giving for me is to only have YOU know what YOU have given, therefore you cant feel guilty. Bragging about it is just, well, eurgh.

7. Been to Disneyland/world. Does Disneyland Paris count? 3 times. Once as a child the year after it opened and twice for work. The work outings were much more enjoyable because I could drink before getting on the rides. puke ups, nil! Hoorah!

8. Climbed a mountain. Nope. A fair few hills in my time but nothing THAT big. Although I have been driven by my parents over most of France as a kid I may have been driven up a mountain. The roads were certainly scary enough.

10. Sang a solo. HHAHAHAAHAHAHAHahahahahah ahahahahahaha ahahahaha *breathe* ahahahahahaha hahahaha please stop me I’ve got a stitch. Oh… maybe I have. I think it was a school harvest festival. *shudders at the memory* at around age 8. Oh and crikey I just remembered I lead a kirtan or two at the temple. That would count.

11. Bungee jumped. I like my eyeballs and retinas still attached thanks. I thought it may be fun when I was younger but I just know my skin would never fit the same again now. I like rides where you’re strapped in and its SAFE.

12. Visited Paris. A couple of times. Once with my parents, once on a school trip where the bus went round the arc de triomphe TWICE. SCARY.

13. Watched a lightning storm at sea. Also like Mary I grew up on the coast and saw many a sea storm from the land. Always impressive and cool.

14. Taught yourself an art from scratch. Needle felting. Great fun stabbing things until your wrists hurts and getting something pretty at the end of it.

15. Adopted a child. not likely. I’m happy as I am and I would like to try and create my own first. My need to mother and have children has so not kicked in properly.

16. Had food poisoning. Oh yes. Both ends at the same time . On a training course in London. Best thing I could do was get a cab to the hotel and sit in bed with a very very large brandy and a little light sorbet. It worked! best cure ever.

17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty. nope.

18. Grown your own vegetables. TA DA! I must admit though they were all eaten by catapillars and slugs. Not a great success.

19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France. something I missed on my walks around paris.

20. Slept on an overnight train. no way unless I get my own pillow from home.

21. Had a pillow fight. but I cant stand feathers so I’ve never had a pillow burst and shower the room.

22. Hitch hiked. GOD no. I don’t have a death wish. I have also NEVER picked up a hitch hiker.

23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill. Except I’ve got this nagging doubt even when I am ill that I’m skiving so this may not be the case.

24. Built a snow fort. I want to build a snow cat and a snow dog and anything else if only I had enough snow!

25. Held a lamb. Milked a cow. I loved it too. Until the cow put its back leg in the milk bucket.

26. Gone skinny dipping. in a private pool, in our private villa on holidays. Where its WARM.

27. Run a marathon. Nope, never I really never ever want to feel that knackered.

28. Ridden a gondola in Venice. I was due to go to venice when on a school trip to Italy as a child. The trains had a strike so we could not go. I did get to go to verona instead and see juliettes balcony.

29. Seen a total eclipse. Shpoooky.

30. Watched a sunrise or sunset. many many times. helps living in a country where during the winter the sun rises between 6 and 9 and sets between 3 and 8. Also saw some on honeymoon.  Oh and getting up at 4am with the hare krishnas leads to some great sunrise chanting. Most enjoyable meditation.

31. Hit a home run. on WiiSports and in rounders at highschool. who’d of thunk I was sporty at school! HA.

32. Been on a cruise. I like holidays where I choose where and when I interact with people. Cruising sounds like hell.

33. Seen Niagara Falls in person. nope.

34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors. sorta…. if you count going to visit my granny. She never moved far from where she grew up.

35. Seen an Amish community spent some time with another religous community. Got to love them HK’s they are so very welcoming. I was innocent, it was a great match for a while.

36. Taught yourself a new language. meh, I can code a little but I cant call that propper. I was tought french and italian at school but they are so rusty you could pull off the bumber.

37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied. I’m with Mary on this. Money is not there for satisfaction, its there to put food on the plate and help you get confortable enough to find the real satisfactions in life. My bills are paid, I have a little left over for occasional treats.

38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person. *le sigh* makes note to book next holiday in italy.

39. Gone rock climbing. we had a rock wall in Norfolk at our highschool. Flattest place in england.

40. Seen Michelangelo’s David in person. nope

41. Sung Karaoke. only when drunk, 18 and on a girly holiday with my best friend Eve.

42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt. nope, but I wanna.

43. Bought a stranger a meal in a restaurant. resta what? I don’t go out often. Plus I’d rather take my husband.

44. Visited Africa. Nope, but nearly got to India. Even had my shots before the trip was cancelled. Still would like to see some of both.

45. Walked on a beach by moonlight. Many times. oh the wild days.

46. Been transported in an ambulance. Never. Never ever even been inside an ambulance. Been to A&E but never for myself. Only been in hospital once since birth and that was to have my wisdom teeth removed all at the same time. Worst nights kip ever.

47. Had your portrait painted. YAY!

48. Gone deep sea fishing. Sailed your own boat. I used to own a laser sailing boat when I was 16. Living on the coast made me a keen sailor until I got hypothermia sailing and capsising in March in the north sea coast. I gave it all up and moved inland. I’d love to sail again but ones you cant tip over so much.

49. Seen the Sistine chapel in person. nope, but I did visit the Cappella collioni in Bergamo.

50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris. well, no. But I have stood underneath it. Another one of those I’ve only just missed.

51. Gone scuba diving or snorkelling. Lanzarotte, my first holiday with Scotty. Last day there and it was a catamaran day trip. Brilliant.

52. Kissed in the rain. 😀

53. Played in the mud. What are sea marshes for except for masses of mud? Another bonus of growing up on the coast. Lots of samphire too. Yum.

54. Gone to a drive-in theatre. Nope. Not a staple of the UK. I never ever need to go to a cinema again now we have a nice telly with the PS3 playing HD DVD’s.

55. Been in a movie. Not something I want or need to do. Although I was in the pub in wells-next-the-sea when one of my favourite actors was meant to be out site. Patrick Stewart. Instead he was a mile or so away down the beach doing other scenes. There were cameras outside so we were not allowed to peek out.

56. Visited the Great Wall of China. Nope. another place I hope one day to see but its not likely as I don’t like long haul flights.

57. Started a business. nope, I like the security of someone else paying my wages.

58. Taken a martial arts class. nope. I’m a gym and excersise avoider.

59. Visited Russia. nope, but they seem so… interesting.

60. Served at a soup kitchen. sorta… I’ve fed people for free, and some that are homeless by helping the hare krishnas and thier food for life campain.

61. Sold Girl Scout cookies. I was chucked out of brownies… I made a friend land on her face by pulling her arms through her legs.

62. Gone whale watching. nope, but saw many seals on the coast as a kid and a washed up dead whale.

63. Been given flowers for no reason. I tend not to do flowers. I don’t want the cats eating them. Plus I’m alergic to pollen, cats and many other things. I think flowers are pretty but a waste of money and resources that need to be placed elsewhere.

64. Donated blood. but not for a while. I tend to spend a lot of my time dizzy so I’d be scared of coming out from donating and passing out on the pavement.

65. Gone sky diving. Nope, not really planning on it either. bit too high and relying on a small bit of fabric to save you.

66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp. No, but I have been to Compiègne Forest where the armistice was signed for world war 2. I saw the train and saw some things that shocked and gave me nightmares as a child. dismembered people etc… It was barbaric viewing but a definate must see. Something to remind us humans are capable of mass atrocities and need to be reminded of such.

67. Bounced a cheque. NOPE never. Always in the black.

68. Flown in a helicopter. Nope, but dad was winched in one when he was a coast guard for training.

69. Saved a favourite childhood toy. My mum cleared out the toys from the attic and thought she’d asked me if I wanted to keep mine and I’d said no. I didn’t so poor old big ted went to the tip.

70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial. nope. Went to Scotland and toured a whiskey factory. I was drunk at the age of 10 ish. Well not properly drunk but they gave me enough.

71. Eaten Caviar. Does sushi count? I really love the caviar they use in some of the sushi. I’ve tried cheap jar stuff from the supermarket and don’t. Its foul.

72. Pieced a quilt. Mum and I made a quilt together for my … I think 16th birthday. I still love it but it has to be wrapped away now because its wearing thin.

73. Stood in Times Square. nope. but I’ve sung and danced through the streets of London.

74. Toured the Everglades. nope. but learned to windsurf on a lake on holiday. close enough for me!

75. Been fired from a job. nope. I was made redundant once but in my 1 month gardening leave I got two jobs. I’ve NEVER (so far caviat) been without a job since I was 14. Yes, I worked as soon as I could part time for cash.

76. Seen the Changing of the Guard in London. yeah yeah…. lots of uniforms.

77. Broken a bone. well, not one that could be sorted out or that i’ve been told about. Any sprains or strains have always been mended the good old hard way, with just a tubagrip. Damn them never giving me crutches.

78. Been on a speeding motorcycle. I don’t like motor bikes. I had a friend die on one when I was 15 he was 16. Put me off them for life.

79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person. nope.

80. Published a book. no… this is what I write, apart from that I don’t have the wherewithall for it.

81. Visited the Vatican. nope. I’m not a pope lover, or hater just an avoider.

82. Bought a brand new car. a cheap one mind you. Just a honda Jazz. I have a Civic now but it was a year old when I got it as a deal.

83. Walked in Jerusalem. nope.

84. Had your picture in the newspaper. 3 years old, beautiful blonde curled pigtails, blanket in had and thumb in mouth. I was scared of the Mr Punch.

86. Visited the White House. nope.  but seen 10 downing street from the outside.

87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating. No. I can do with fish, have done too but I cant do it with animals so I don’t eat them.

88. Had chickenpox. Yes and scars to prove it.

89. Saved someone’s life. not that I’m aware of… but maybe that blood I gave.

90. Sat on a jury. no but I think I could cope with jury service.

91. Met someone famous. I suppose it depends what you call famous. I served Chas Smash from Madness in the chippy. Had my photo taken with Richard Branson which then was used as a caption compatition which resulted in the caption: “smile or I squeeze harder bitch” I’m so glad I don’t have that photo any more.

92. Joined a book club. sounds like hard work. I’ve not got enough time to craft let alone read and then blab about it.

93. Lost a loved one. Love my mum. Miss her loads. Must admit its messed me right up not having her to talk to. She was the bestest.

94. Had a baby. Never even been close, never missed a period apart from when I’m on the pill and they are meant to be missing. Always been careful.

95. Seen the Alamo in person. no.
96. Swum in the Great Salt Lake. no.
97. Been involved in a law suit. no, and only ever once been to court to watch my sister fight a prat who crashed in to her.
98. Owned a mobile phone. Duh.
99. Been stung by a bee. OUCH and I think I’m allergic because I swelled up. Good job it was only my little finger.

So there we go enough useless information about me to last you until at least next year. 😉 39 have dones, and I cant be bothered to add up the rest. Its taken me two days to fill this in as it is!

I nominate my husband to do this too, and anyone else who wants to.

EDIT: some more substitutions for visiting the great american places on the list:

Visited Dublin, nice city. It was a bit cold and damp in february. Driven clean accross the UK from norfolk to west wales and back. Driven abroad in france, spain and portugal. Did my “duke of edinboroughs award” did the bronze, tried the silver twice and failed and damaged my back permanantly in the process. Oh and many more things that just makes life interesting but would look dull here.


things to look forward to

January 16, 2009

I’ve found when I’m most down this is part of the issue. I cant see what’s coming ahead and I struggle to look forward to something. Well after feeling so very down I shook myself out of it with a lot of sleep and relaxation to get myself in a fighting position. I was strung out completely and nothing but a good nights kip was going to help. I did that Wednesday night and it helped my outlook. A lovely chat with Dad also helped and also Scotty helped by being there for me and making me laugh, which is what he does best. No matter how sad I am he can always find something to say or do that I will not be able to resist giggling at. Something as simple as calling Segourney Weaver a scrawny beaver. I’m surprised I don’t remember hearing that one before. Not that its a great example because usually its animal related and rather bizarre and not so derogatory but he’s got a way of showing me he cares enough to bring me out of any bad situation.  I really love that man.

Anyhew, on to nice positive things, things I started to look forward to. Last night we had a leaving party for one of our colleagues who took voluntary redundancy. It was a nice team of people down the pub after work and as cocktails were cheap I had a couple although I stopped well before I got too lairy. Oh yes, I don’t mix with alcohol often I tend to blert things out when I do. It was lovely to see Lisa again and great to hear that she had got herself a new job with more money and better prospects. hoorah!

So we all had drinkies, and three of us decided to stay out for dinner. As everyone else dissipated away to their respective partners and homes and activities we went to go for tapas. We were going to La Tasca but it was a 30 minute wait. We went to Torero instead which was delicious and the best tapas I’ve had outside of Spain. Had lots of lovely flavours and lots of good chat with two exceptionally intelligent and good natured colleagues whom I can call friends.

I’m lucky, I know I am. I just don’t take advantage of that fact enough. Things like going out for dinner with friends is something I should do more and will lead to a more stable me. Its just a shame I missed knit club again but there is always next week. Those ladies are fab too and I forget how much I appreciate the change of scenery from home and the interaction with people outside of work in a leisurely manner.

I do have things to look forward to, including and not limited to: my brothers birthday less than a week away (oh damn must find a present), The twins’ birthdays two days later. My 31st birthday (oh crikey… I’m not sure quite how to feel but it appears to be boding) and Scotty’s birthday after that. Plus cards to grans and auntie by the end of Feb. So yeah it all does get better from here. I just have to remember that, and keep doing stuff no matter how icky inside or outside I feel. Its just difficult some times and I’m glad I could tell you all because I was holding back and I don’t think that helped either.


hi, I’m jiva

January 14, 2009

and I’m a lazy blogger. To be completely honest I’m rather a wreck at the moment. Head wise.

I’m doing everything as normal and achieving a days work and keeping just about on top of the cooking and maybe not the cleaning but hey nobody is counting and I can always blame it on the cats. Otherwise in my head I think I’m a bit screwed up right now. Slightly emotionally unstable, tired ALL the time, eye twitches and stress levels high although nothing has really changed at all, so I cant see why I am slowly nagging myself in to a mental hatred of myself meaning what ever I do I’m disappointed with me, just me and nothing else. I’m even annoyed with myself for feeling this way. One vicious circle complete.

Scotty had a bit of a cold at the end of last week so we’ve been on tick over trying to relax but keep on top of things. He’s still lovely and keeps telling me I’m great and it sorta sinks in when he does. Just I wish I could feel joyous and bouncy and life filled. Instead because we both felt crappy we watched lots of films at the weekend including Iron man – liked it, and hellboy 1 and 2 – seen 1 before and love 2 now too.

I’ve finished the pink scarf for Eve but I’m yet to wash and block it because I’ve not properly blocked anything before.

I used up some of the carded bats of merinio fiber I bought for felting by knitting direct from draft. Hard work on the fingers and although I love the colours of what I knitted – a hat, it is slightly too tight and small for me. I seem to always forget how big my head is. If only it would shrink in size like my ego does. Plus because its direct from draft it’s mighty fluffy and could probably do with felting. I see a felted bowl coming because it was knit on 8mm needles with a chunky style it will probably be too thick when felted and too small for any normal human.

No photos at the moment. Its just tooooooooooo (mega emphasis) grey out there. I’m sure this is also effecting my outlook on things.  Anyway before I make anyone who reads this want to cry and pity themselves too, I’d better shake myself out of it.

Roll on the holiday season. I need to get something booked SOON.


I was planning

January 8, 2009

on doing a knitting post soon. I still need to finish one object, wash and block it and photograph it. Then I also need to get a photo of dad in his scarf. So I am trying to get there but I don’t see the point in being half arsed about it and not doing it all together.

Anyway on the good news front the dentists was way way better than expected. I’m almost jumping with joy at how well it went. No injections, no pain killers. All he did was very delicately remove the old filling and stick in a new one. No drilling of actual tooth matter at all. He also fitted it so well he tested to make sure I could floss properly around it which did not happen last time. It’s still an amalgam filling but better than a decaying one. Then to make things even better he said there was no point having any other fillings yet, the others may not need doing if I keep looking after my teeth properly YAY! see you in 6 months DOUBLE YAY! I wanted to kiss the guy but, I’m quite reserved and still English so I just said thank you and that he did a great job. He’s made me a lot less scared of the dentist and I know he’s not going to do any work unless absolutely necessary. Not like the last one saying I needed a further 4 fillings, 6 years ago. Thank god I did not go back there.

I’ve shown you a couple of the videos i’ve got so far with my new canon ixus camera. I’m going to try and keep them all tagged together in Flickr. Click the link to see catty goodness in the forms of Otis, Jasper and our neighbours cat Mr Shouty. We’ve still not got his real name but I do think our name for him suits him fine.

I hope to get more videos soon too, and more photos. I just have to wait for a chance in daylight, which is still rather lacking around this part of the world. The daylight hours are definitely getting longer but its still dark most of the time, or grey.

Hopefully its knit night tonight 🙂


in which loins are girded but not needed.

January 6, 2009

Le sigh.

I told you before Christmas I needed my filling replaced. Well today I got up early and stomped through an icy city to get to the dentist on time for my appointment. Except it wasn’t. I did not sleep well. I’ve not been looking forward to it. I girded my loins and faced up to the fact I was going to have a numb mouth up until lunch time. Then when I’d walked for a good 25 minutes across town in -2 oC they told me my appointment was for Thursday not Tuesday.

I nearly cried when I left the dentist, with no work done. I then stomped all the way to work and arrived early so I got hold of some lovely warming porridge with banana. Now I’m super tired, slightly over strung and still wanting to cry because I have to go and do it all again. Plus my hips are aching from the cold. Roun trip of nearly 3 miles I think… ish. Or at least it felt like it.

I feel stupid, I am stupid and all it would have taken would have been a look in my handbag at the note they printed for me with the apointment on it. I’ll have to chalk this one down to check and double check before leaving the house.

I need a nap.